In Which: Life is Good

Pardon me for feeling Philosophical and Poetical, but I can't help it. it just is there behind the tongue and thee eyes and the heart thats beating and that smile that's growing somewhere deep;pulsing

Because I am in a Singular Mood this evening and I don't really know why. Work was fine, better than last night. and I had a 1718 meeting right after and I think that is where the Mood began. Because unlike litsoc, which fills me with anger and a smoldering heat, 1718 apparently makes me want to Smile.

And I feel: Light.

And then I was talking with Brett and we started talking about life, and Paths, and through this whole think I feel as if i am going to explode, indeed, even just Shatter into Bits. and I feel badly because he is not doing as well and I don't want to shine on while he feels down. but he asks, when I tell him that i'm sorry for being philosphical about his position (since my advice was..lofty? i dont know but not Normal Me) and i say that it is because for once I am not where He is, but Elsewhere, another Path. so he says:

well what path is it that you've started on?

and I Say:

"the one where life doenst suck and im not waiting for the other foot to drop
where i can have evenings that feel almost like being in love
without actually being in love with anything at all"

and That might be one of the most True things I have ever said. Because thats where I am Right Now. and it took talking with Brett to realize it...and he brightened...having me say that. and that made me nearly Shatter. (I am taking him to jazz on saturday night, which means I have a 'date' with a good friend who dearly needs hugs and Energy. Can I say that this too makes me Shatter? it does. it is the Ultimate)



and later he says :
"yea
i just had a moment
where i realized i was feeling better due to two adjacent conversations
one with you
one with noah
i was like yay"


And It was Good